Your timeline, your story.

Happy new year, love.❤️

Jan 05, 2025

Hi, my love. How are you?

Yes, yes, I know I said you were going hear from me one more time before the year ended. I'm sorry I couldn't send you a letter, life happened.

But really, how are you feeling as we begin this new year? How has the week treated you? If you could describe this week in a single color, what would it be? Mine felt like soft yellow—calm, hopeful. What about yours?

I’ve been thinking a lot about time lately. About how I was a child in 2005, literally a baby.

Then, there was 2015, with it's lessons and blessings and now here I am in 2025, feeling a kind of peace I never imagined back then. There’s something so special about seeing the years go by and realizing you’re still standing, still growing, and still learning. This year feels different—and I’m here for it.

I think I started the year on a good note.

First of all, it's almost as though I've been cured of my "anxiety." Exams are looming, amongst other things, but to my surprise, I’m not that bothered. Not bothered doesn’t mean I’m not preparing o! It just means I’m not scared—and honestly, that feels like such a win for me.

Then, there’s the fact that I began this year on a very productive note. I’ve already finished my first read of the year (I tried, triedn't I?), and I’ve taken my studies more seriously in these last four days than I did throughout the entire holiday.

Another thing bringing me joy is The Chosen series. Something about seeing the life of Jesus and His disciples just makes me so happy. Peter is exactly how I imagined him to be, and Matthew? Such a cute guy. Don’t even get me started on Jesus Himself—I’ve been gushing about Him for days, and the people on my WhatsApp can testify!

You know, while watching an episode last night, I found myself wondering about grief. When I get to heaven and see Jesus, one of the questions I’ll ask Him is, “How did You cope with grief? How did You handle losing Joseph? And then John?”

There are so many moments in The Chosen that have stuck with me. I even adopted a prayer from it.

Yeah, it's that serious.

However, one part that stood out the most was a conversation between Phillip and Matthew. Matthew was confiding in Phillip about how he feels different and how it seems too late for him to catch up with what the others know. Phillip reassured him, saying it wasn’t too late, that his timeline was just rearranged (paraphrasing).

That statement hit me deeply. It reminded me of when I first started my journey with God and watched people my age doing great things for Him. For the longest time, I dwelled on regret—wishing I had taken my relationship with God seriously earlier. But hearing that phrase, “Your timeline is just rearranged,” was like a balm to my soul. It reminded me that my story isn’t behind; it’s just unfolding uniquely.

I know a lot of us are turning big ages this year and it can get a little bit scary. Okay, to be honest, I don't like the age I'm turning this year, at all! And I don't want to think about it yet.

I'm just a girl, bro.

Life is getting more serious, year by year and there's the pressure that comes with these “big” ages.

Well, as we step into this year, I hope you remember that your story, just like mine, is unfolding exactly as it should. It’s not too late. Your timeline is uniquely yours, and that’s what makes it beautiful.

Matthew's parents told him, after he followed Jesus and reconcile with them, that he's surely going to redeem their family name. I smiled to myself and thought, "Bro, over two thousand years later, everybody still knows Matthew, the son of Alphaeus. The Catholics most likely have a day set apart just for him. "

It's never too late, my love! Never too late.

Here’s to a year of soft yellows, quiet(and loud) wins, and growth that feels just right. I’m rooting for you, always.

Happy new year, my love!❤️

Just out of curiosity.

When you finally see Jesus in heaven, do you have questions for Him? I have hundreds, tbh .

Can you tell me one?