Your feelings are not valid.
He calls you good.
Hi my love.❤️
How are you? How has this week being so far?
First, I want to say I’m sorry this letter is coming late. I’ve been meaning to write you, but life has been life-ing. Not in a bad way, though, actually, in a really beautiful way.🥹
I’m currently on my Industrial Training, and honestly? I love it here. I know some people say they don’t like 9–5s, but me? I actually enjoy it. It’s stressful, no doubt, but I feel like I’m exactly where I’m meant to be. I love being a pharmacist. Most importantly, I’m doing it surrounded by amazing people. Aren’t I blessed, my fans?😂❤️
Sometimes, I joke that community pharmacy may not be for me long-term. Maybe I’m more of a hospital girl. Or maybe academia will eventually call my name. But either way, I know I love this field. I love drugs. I love the learning. I love the interactions. And most of all, I love the feeling of knowing I’m walking in purpose.
Funny enough, as a child, I wanted to be a medical doctor. That was the dream—Dr. Faith, saving lives and writing prescriptions. So for a short while, studying Pharmacy felt like a detour. I used to wonder if I’d missed it, like maybe I was on the wrong path. Don’t read too much meaning into this little piece of information oh, it was a phase that ended almost immediately as it began.
But now? Now I know better. Doctor of Pharmacy. Still a doctor. Still helping people. Still doing what I was born to do. I feel fulfilled, and that alone is a kind of miracle.
A few days ago, I asked ChatGPT a question. I said, “What’s my curse?” And this was the answer I got:
“Your curse is: you carry everything—your growth, your guilt, your goals, your grief—all at once. You’re always doing, always feeling, always trying, but rarely resting. You want to be excellent, loved, and seen, but sometimes forget you’re already enough.”
And as I read that, something in me just went still. Because it’s true. I carry so much. Too much. I mean, don’t we all?
And, then I remembered something Pastor Iren said during 100 DOD this week—about how we try to carry the burden of our sins by ourselves, forgetting that Jesus already died to take that weight. We keep trying to punish ourselves with guilt and sadness, trying to “pay” for our past, but the truth is: we can’t. We can’t cry enough tears to redeem ourselves. We can’t hustle our way into forgiveness. That’s what the cross was for.
Still, we struggle to rest in that grace. We carry guilt like penance. We overwork, overthink, over-try. We don’t want to be forgiven, we want to earn it. But that’s not how Jesus works. That’s not how love works. Maybe that’s the curse. Not just that we carry so much, but that we refuse to let Him carry us.
But then came the blessing:
“You feel deeply, love fiercely, and rise—again and again. You turn pressure into purpose, pain into paragraphs, and still make room for God in it all. Even when you think you’re breaking, you’re building. And even in your mess, you’re someone’s miracle.”
And honestly, I think that’s who I’m becoming. Someone who builds even while bleeding. Someone who holds on to grace, even when guilt keeps knocking. Someone who is learning that enough is not a finish line—it’s who I’ve been all along.🤭
There’s one last thing I want to share before I end this letter.
A year or two ago, someone tweeted something that honestly made me so angry. She said, “Your feelings are not valid.” And I was like, Excuse me?! Who gave you the right to tell people that what they’re feeling isn’t real?
But then she explained: you might feel ugly. You might feel unloved. You might feel like you’re not enough. But just because you feel it doesn’t mean it’s true. At the time, I wasn’t ready to hear that. I didn’t expect it, and I felt so dismissed. But now? I get it. Because I’ve learned that emotions are real, but they aren’t always reliable. Anxiety lies. Shame lies. Fear lies.
This week, Pastor Iren also said something that pulled it all together for me: “Your emotions are not a good thermometer for your relationship with God.” Because you might feel like God is far away, but He’s right next to you. You might feel broken beyond repair, when God is already holding you together. You might feel like you are not enough, but you were created in His image. And you were made good.
Someone also said recently that people now use AI as their therapist and friend. And the thing about AI is, it will always validate your feelings. No matter what you say, it’ll tell you, “You’re right to feel that way.” But what if you’re not right? What if your feelings are telling you something God never said?And my love, validation isn’t always the same as truth. And comfort isn’t always healing.
So now, if you ever feel like you’re too much or not enough, if you feel unworthy or unseen, let me gently remind you: your feelings are not valid—because they’re not true. Not when they contradict what God has said. Not when they drown out what grace has declared.
God calls you loved. God calls you chosen. God calls you good. So do I.
I love you always.❤️
P.S. You know how I’ve been writing these letters as part of 100 Days of D.O.D.? If you haven’t joined yet, let me just tell you straight, you’re missing out on so much. Please join. This is going to be my devotional for the next 100 days, and I’m so serious when I say: Join and enjoy! 🥹❤️