Why so scared?

Ehn?

Hi, love, how are you doing? How was this week for you? It was chill at first for me, until Thursday. I've gone back to the trenches, my fanssss.😭Anyways, I hope you’ve thanked God today? If you haven't, it's not too late. Thank your maker!

One major experience with fear in my life was when we moved to our house and they said my sister and I were going to have our rooms. I was 9 at the time but prior to that time, we were sleeping in my parents' room. Omo!😂Every night like this, I'll start crying, trembling and I was always hearing things in the midnight. Most nights, I'll go to my parents' room and wake them up, saying I heard someone entering the house. I fell sick oh, I had to be in the hospital for three days.

Then, I grew up and my fears changed into anxiety. I wasn't really scared about physical danger, ghosts or things like that anymore but I started worrying a lot. I worried about school, my future, what would happen if I did this or that and even about what people thought about me. That people part is one of the reasons I’d rather stay inside than go outside and embarrass myself. I mean, people can't talk about what they don't see. Laughs in social anxiety.😂

Last year, I lost a dear one and while I was sad and all, I had this thought that what if it doesn't end with her? I became so anxious and I just kept checking on my other family members. It took a little while for me to shut down that thought.

Most times, I'm actually just scared for nothing cause I've been in situations where I'd be so scared and worried about something. Like sleepless night type of scared, and God will just come through for me and I always wonder why I was so anxious. Why am I always worried when the Lord is on my side? It annoys me at times like broo, can you just chill and trust God? Why am I so scared of not being enough, when God is enough? I tell some of my friends these things and these fears sound so weird even to me.😭

If you're like me and you're always worrying, this is your sign to let go of your fears and let God do His thing. Honestly, I feel like majority of these things come from us trying to do things ourselves and then we discover that we can't handle, then we panic. We’re so reliant on our strength and abilities. That time in our new house, one of the ways I overcame that fear was that I realized that God was in my room to protect me, cause even if evil spirit or ghost comes, na me go fight am? I chop cane too sha oh, but you get my point.😂

Exodus 14:14

The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still. (NIV)

See, all we need to do is relax and allow God. We really can't handle these things ourselves.When fear or anxious thoughts try to flood your mind, speak God's truth to every little evil thought. When that thought of failure comes and you start to worry, remember that God dwells in you, you cannot fail. A friend gave me a bible verse(Romans 8 vs 15) a long time ago and anytime the anxiety gets so bad, I repeat the verse again and again. What the bible verse says is that we’re no longer slaves to fear but we're now children of God. The reassurance and truth in that verse, bro!

This coming week, I hope you'll really calm down and let Jesus take the wheel. Anxiety has nothing on you, my love. Till next Saturday, byeee!

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*Fear is an intense biological response to immediate danger, while anxiety is an emotion regarding things we think may happen. So you see the difference?

*Anytime I think about this time, I was laugh at myself 'cause broo, what was actually wrong with me? I wasn't even a baby oh, I was in JSS1 then.

*I was planning this letter on my way to school and anxiety was killing me. It was two things actually; I was scared about school, my exams and other stuff sha and then, about my power bank and charger cause I couldn't feel them in my bag.😭😂

*We reached over a 100 subscribers this week, you guysss!😭 Starting this newsletter, I was so anxious about people’s response. I don't like putting myself out because I like to put in my best efforts and it will be a lil bit disappointing if there was no response but you guys have motivated me soo muchh. You guys are so amazing and I’m grateful for you all. I'm also grateful for everyone that has sent me messages personally about the last two letters. I’m so encouraged. If you're planning on starting something this year, this is your sign to start it NOW, don't let fear hold you back.❤️