Self aware?
Better know Jesus first.
Hi guys, how are you? How was this week for you? For me, it was just challenges here and there. The challenges weren't from the exams, funny enough😂,but we thank God.
I’m really sorry for not sending letters last week, I was burnt out and I didn't want to write just anything and send. I need to do better with my time management sha. May God help me.😪
Hope you've thanked God today? It's not too late if you haven't.
Have you ever thought you weren't capable of something? Maybe you've even sworn to your friends that you can NEVER EVER do that thing. Then suddenly, you realize that you can actually do it and you're doing it with every strength in you.😭This has been my situation since the beginning of this year, you guys.
Before now, I have never been able to keep grudges. Most times, when someone does something bad or hurtful to me, with time, I forget. The time I mean here isn't months oh, I'm talking about days. You'll just see me shining teeth with that same person and you'll wonder, "did this person not hurt this girl some days ago?". I'm not trying to say I'm a good person or anything, that was just how I was. (or how I thought I was🤣)
Late last year, I applied for something and someone I knew was in the position to help me but he didn't. I'm not that close with this person actually but I really felt like me knowing him should have been like an advantage for me. I was actually pained and I can't lie to you guys, everytime I see this person, I'm always angry.😂😭It takes so much strength to not hiss at him anytime I see him.
Then, this year too, someone else did something similar and I decided that I'll stop greeting the person whenever I see him.
I still greet him anyways but it takes so much struggle with the Holy Spirit to do it because why is it so hard for you to render help when you can? That's by the way sha.😂 I even tried putting myself in these people's shoes to understand why they acted that way but it doesn't just make any sense to me.
I really thought I knew myself because one major thing I did last year was paying attention to how I feel about situations or people's action. So the fact I'm feeling this way right now is actually a shock. Anyways, I’ve realized that people often grossly overestimate their level of self-awareness and that was exactly what I did.
Not being able to forgive is not actually a good things, guys, but I've able to learn in this situation that change is actually inevitable and God knows it. What's important is what we do response to that change in our lives. If it's a bad change, am I willing to take corrections and go back to the right path? If the change is a good one, am I ready to continue in it, even if it might be inconvenient for me?
Self-awareness is very good, I'm not even going to lie. It's a very good thing if you're able to objectively evaluate yourself, manage your emotions, align your behavior with your values, and understand correctly how others perceive you. However, above all, be aware of Jesus than you're aware of yourself.
Wha’s she saying again, abi? Don't overthink it ehn, ko lo far.😂 It's not that deep.
I'm really trying hard to find an easy way to explain this but just know that, when you start paying too much attention to self-awareness, if you're not careful, you might always try to justify your actions and responses to others' actions, even when you're wrong because you feel you know yourself. (It might not be like this for you, don't come for me.)
"Self" most times, is a manifestation of the flesh and the flesh is very deceptive. The only thing it wants you to do is it's will. Be aware of Jesus and what He wants, my love. Let your daily mantra be “more of Jesus, less of me.” Most times you should even try to ask yourself , "what would Jesus do in this situation?". The answer is there in your Bible.
Philippians 2:3-6 NLT
Don’t be selfish; don’t try to impress others. Be humble, thinking of others as better than yourselves. Don’t look out only for your own interests, but take an interest in others, too. You must have the same attitude that Christ Jesus had. Though he was God, he did not think of equality with God as something to cling to.
God knows that I'm trying so hard to just be able to let go of the grudge I have against these people but while doing that, I'm making sure that I'm not letting guilt make me put too much pressure on myself. I keep reminding myself that I'm not necessarily a bad person, I'm just a girl and I'm still in the process of becoming. I know God is working on my heart sha and I know I'll share my testimony with you guys soon. 🌚😂
If you're struggling with hurt from people too, I want you to know that forgiveness is a process, you might just have to do it bit by bit and besides, life is too short. Just pray to God for help and He'll help you.
Till next week, you guys! I love you all so much and thank you for always reading. God will bless you guys for me. Byeeee.😘
*Shey you people noticed that the two people are boys? Those people have bad character.😔😂
I'm just joking abeg.
*I'm done with exams oh, my fansss. God really did and I'm so grateful that I didn't loose my mind ‘cause at some point ehn.😂
*Yessss, valentine is next week. Don't do what Jesus will not do oh.😒 Thank God, that day is Wednesday, go for midweek service! Go and shower your love on God.
I come in peace, plix.😂🤲🏽 Goblezzz.