Free.
I had already slipped before i realized.
I slipped right back into the darkness.
Right there, in the dark corners of my room,
I did those things I vowed to never do again.
I had nailed my savior to the cross, yet again.
I struggled so hard with the thoughts,
Fought so hard against those desires.
Tried so hard to fight off the enemy and his devices.
But, it seemed like they were winning.
What am I even saying? they'll eventually win
They always do.
I was tired, almost ready to give in and surrender.
The enemy was too strong for me to fight off on my own.
It seemed like it was better for me to let him win. Pleasure came with it, anyways.
"I'll enjoy now and suffer later" I thought to myself.
Then, that beautiful Easter morning, basking in my shame and guilt,
I saw the prince of peace, shining in light so bright.
Right there, in the midst of that light, I could see His smile.
I have never seen any human with such a sweet and warm smile.
He approached me with His arms wide open.
I wasn't even in them yet, but I could feel the warmth of His embrace.
He said, "Child, stop. Stop fighting the adversary with your strength. You won't win, you can't win this battle on your own".
"So, i should sit back? Relax? Watch him wreck my life? That's what I plan on doing anyways. I've tried all I can and I'm already exhausted." I asked Him.
"Just rest, my love, rest in me. See, I have all the strength you need to fight off the enemy. I have empowered you with this strength, open your eyes and see."
The light surrounding Him became brighter at those words.
Scales that I didn't know were on my eyes fell off.
My eyes of understanding were opened.
And I just knew!
It was right in that moment I knew I was loved.
I was loved so much, that He gave His life for me.
Who am I that He would love me this much?
Me? a wretched sinner!
I knew right there that I didn't have to bask in the regrets of my past.
The lie of the enemy is not my reality, not even close to it.
The enemy says I have too much offences, how I can be worthy of any love, not to talk of this great love?
"I have made all things new, old things have passed away", that's what my savior said.
He said He finds me worthy of His love and that's all that matters.
The enemy says love is not enough.
My lover said, “I am love, how can I not be enough?”
I just had to lean on the Crucified.
I just needed to rest in His strength.
After all, the adversary is no match for my lover.
He already conquered Him by laying down His life.
It was right there, in His arms, I knew I was forgiven.
I knew I was free.
And since that beautiful Easter morning, I have decided,
I have decided and vowed to make Him proud.
He gave His life for me and I'm going to live mine for Him.
Even when I die, it's for Him.
His death cannot be vain over me.
I cannot make my savior sad.
I have to make Him smile.
I have to complete this course.
I have to make it home to Him.
I have to see Him smile to me and tell me “welcome home.”
This is the story of a former transgressor.
I don't know if you can relate to her story but if you do,
Surrender all to Jesus today.
He died and rose again all because of you.
That rose was trampled on, just because of you.
Surrender to the light and let it free you.
Let it rid you of the burden of sin.
Surrender to the light and let it purge of you of all impurities.
Let it rid you of every form of darkness.
You have suffered enough.
You have been held captive enough.
It's time to be free.
Will you receive this gift of freedom?
Know that on this day, thousands of years ago, Heaven gave it all for you.
A father gave up His only begotten son for you,
Will you let that gift of eternal life go to waste?