days like this.

6/30!

my love,

there'll always be days like this. days when your legs fail to carry you. days when words fail to express how you feel. days when you can't help but shake your head and say "no" when people ask if you're doing fine. days when you desperately crave the hugs you normally reject from people. days when you'll search within for strength but you can't find. days when you'll want to cry so hard, but tears refuse to fall. days when anxiety chokes you so hard and it feels like there's no escape from this state of breathlessness.

"can i really do this? will i end this?" that's all you think of, on days like this.

you look up to the heavens and it seems like no help is coming forth. your heart is breaking, your strength is fading. in desperation, you whisper a plea, "help me, please, help me."

finally, time stands still and all you can do is breathe. know, my love, that even on days like this, you are not without help.