D for Doubt.

As each day passes by, my exams draw nearer and I can't lie to you, it's getting really hard to not be anxious or scared. Those that know me know that I worry a lot normally but my results from last semester has multiplied my fears by 100. No, I didn't fail but I didn't get the results for the efforts I put in some of those papers. You might actually read this and think "oh, it's one of those "I know what I wrote"moments.😂 Call me Rotimi, it's fine oh, but I know what I wrote. What even made it worse was when someone was trying to encourage me and she said "efforts doesn't always equal to results". Fam, what do you mean by that?😂 That result has actually made me question a whole lot of things about myself and I think it's even one of the things fueling this imposter syndrome thing.

A friend has been telling me about how she knows she can do some things but somehow somehow, she still doubts herself. See, the enemy's biggest tactic has always been doubt; "are you sure God said? Yes, you're singing "I can never fail, the most high is within me" but is He within you?" The devil is such a smart liar and if care isn't taken, he'll make us doubt God and the gifts He has deposited in us.

About two days ago, I saw a post that my choir leader made on Instagram about the battlefield of the mind. What stood out for me was where she said something along the lines of how the enemy has been planting lot of seeds like fear of failure in her heart and for so long, she has just been ignoring these things. However, recently she has been administering the word of God daily to counter the effects of these seeds in her heart. I didn't really pay attention to that word "administer" but my roommate who also saw the post, now made it even more beautiful by reminding me later that day, that the word "administer" is used for injection and as we all know(sorry, if you don't know), compared to other dosage forms, injections works very fast. It just made so much sense to me.

I've heard people say so many times that you can't fight evil thoughts with thoughts but it seems i’m actually just understanding that statement. When that evil thought comes to your mind and you're tempted to say that "God forbid!" in your mind, open your mouth and say it out loud. Make affirmations from the word of God, declare them over yourself daily. So many times, I've posted on my WhatsApp status, "I have a sound mind", it's my way of letting the devil know that he's a big fat liar and he has no control over my mind. The only way you can fight evil thoughts effectively is with the word of God. Make the word of God part of your daily routine, just like your skincare routine.

As for me, I have decided to always remind myself that God is within me and I cannot fail. I am not a failure, I am definitely not a fraud and God's spirit is living inside of me. I think you should do this too. There are so many promises in the word of God for us and we need to make it an habit to constantly remind ourselves of these promises.

As you go into this new week, I hope you'll walk in the reality of God's promises for you. I hope you'll not allow the devil to rob you of the promises of God through doubt. Thank you so much for reading. Till next week, I love youu, byee!❤️

Always remember:

Anxiety has nothing on you.

Fear has nothing on you.

You're no longer a slave to fear.

You're a child of God.