Currently...III✨
I'm not alone.
Hi my love? How are you and how was last week for you? It was a very hectic week for me, because I went back to my teaching job and I kid you not, those kids are after my life! I spend those hours in the school shouting and begging children to do their work. Primary school pupils oh, not those in creche or kindergarten. It's funny how few years before now, I was passionate about those children but right now? I don't just have the patience to deal with them.😭 Hopefully, the term will soon end and everything will be over. Last week was however, a very productive week, regardless if all the chaos. In fact, I think it should be the most productive week I've had since this holiday started. I participated in a 4-day webinar about the time management course I told you guys about and I enjoyed every bit of it. I learnt planning in a way I had not learnt it before and I had so much fun while learning. So, as a result, I plan on going back to sending letters on Saturdays.
Kwankwankwankwan, breaking news…
You know how I couldn't shut up about how I wanted to come home while I was in school?
My dear, I miss school like crazy. I think it's because of the amount of time we spent in school this time around but my heart gets ridiculously heavy when I remember some things or people. I miss my friends.I miss my roommates. I miss my classmates. I miss my study group members and our meetings. I miss ABUAD chapel. I miss choir rehearsals. I miss running to the front of the altar with my friend, Ife, to dance during praise and worship. My chest is paining me as I'm writing this.
These days, I find myself thinking a little bit too much about my "big age". I could literally just be acting out fake scenarios with "my imaginary friends"('cause why not?) in my bedroom and all of a sudden, I'll just stop and think, "broo, what are you doing?". The day before yesterday, I asked google if a 20 year old that has imaginary friends is mentally stable because I needed to be sure if I was still normal. Just to be clear, I'm not seeing things, I just get very bored and glory be to God for the gift of imagination.
If you're an only child, kudos to you oh! Imagination won finish me.
I feel like a 6 year old stuck in the body of a 20 year oh and it's funny because I don't even have the body of a 20 year old. My whole life's journey is not even like that of a typical 20 year old and that's why it's starting to annoy me when people *inserts honourable mentions* say things like "at this your big age, why can't you still do this? why can't you do that? why are you acting this way?" I can't lie, most times, I'm almost tempted to say "at this my big age, am I even supposed to be here?" But, I'd be an ingrate if I said that out loud or even let that thought linger for so long in my heart, wouldn't I?
One important lesson I'm learning this period is that God works with all of us on different time frames. Nobody's life is fast or slow, things happen for us when God deems it best for it to happen. Yes, I know there are other forces that could be at work but I think it should be common knowledge that God is never slow or fast but He's always timely! It might look like things are slow for you but trust me, God is just taking His time.Don't rush out before He is done with you, because if you do, He won't move with you and I know you know that the absence of God is the worst thing that can happen to man. God won't even give you some things yet because He knows you're not ready for them yet and if He should let you have them, it's either you destroy them or they destroy you.
This is, however, not an excuse for us to be complacent and not do things when we're meant to do them. When you need to move, MOVE! Because if you don't move... Complete it in the comment section, I want to check something.
Currently? It feels like it's lonely but I know it's God being intentional. He's saying, "Faith, it's time for fellowship." I'm learning that every season has its own purpose. I love the way it rains almost everyday now, gloomy days are my favourites, 'cause who sunny day help? I've been reading consistently and I think it's very possible for me to complete my reading goal of 60 books this year. They said second semester results would be out in July and surprisingly, I'm not as anxious as I would be normally. I mean, I think about it once in a while but it's not on my mind all the time and I think God deserves plenty accolades for the way He has worked on my mind. These days, all I do is eat my mother's rocky buns and chin chin and play Minister Dunsin Oyekan's Worthy of My Praise throughout the whole day. I think I'm in love with this little life.
Overall? People may seem far and distant but I'm constantly reassured that I'm never alone.
We're never alone, my love, never alone.
Thank you so much for reading! I hope that in this new week, you'll walk in the knowledge that you're not alone and God is always with you. Till next week (Saturday hopefully), I love you, bye!❤️
Happy new month!😚 You heard it from here first, right? Righhttttt???